Peace of Mind and The Godfathers

I can honestly say that I've come at peace with myself because I've forgiven and let go of all the wrong doings of my enemies. It's an easy thing to say but it's even harder to do, but everyone deserves a second chance even if they don't ask for it. For years, I've had such a heavy heart for a certain individual and just the thought of forgetting what they had done to me never came to mind. For so long, I have wanted them to suffer as much as I suffered when they caused me such pain. But I didn't know how I would do this. I wasn't sure if it was worth spending a second plotting against them and planning my revenge. It was just recently that I found out the situation this individual was in and let me tell you that the severity of what they are going through, even I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. Right there and then, my thoughts about this person changed from hating them to sympathizing them. The thoughts of trying to hurt them emotionally suddenly vanished and I just felt like I wanted to support them any way I can. I never imagined speaking to them, let alone trying to comfort them but fate, destiny, karma or whatever you may call it, has a funny way of bringing me closer to them. I've learned that life's too short to spend anytime hating/disliking anyone, so I'm just trying to be positive as best as I can.

Anyway, just thought I'd share that. Sorry for the lack of postings lately but hey it seems like I've been getting a number of visitors who have been choosing the 'Not Like' option for some odd reason. It's all good though.

On a happier note, I probably had the 2nd best date with the ladyfriend this past Friday. We first had breakfast at Cora's Breakfast & Lunch. I had this cinnamon toast looking thing with some sausages, egg and half a plate full of fruits (Note: I ate my first kiwi fruit and I am officially not a fan of it). After that, I took her to Riverwood Conservancy formerly known as Mississauga Garden Park. It's an amazing place to just look and admire nature. It kinda sucked because we were in nice clothing and you really need to wear something comfortable. We saw a number of wildlife from squirrels to chipmunks to a random doe we saw, which my girl acknowledged as "Bambi's mother"...yeah I know she died in the movie, but whatever, I'll give her that one. After that we went to No Frills to do my groceries and that whole experience made me realize how much I enjoy doing simple things with her. We finished in record time and we never missed an item on the list my mom gave me. Our last destination in Mississauga was at Kariya Park. The park honours the twin-city relationship between Mississauga and Kariya, Japan. I'll post pictures later so you guys can see the 'Japanese' tough to the park. We almost got attacked my a flock of Canadian Geese and I fully blame my girl for wearing a hot pink shirt that day because they looked like they were about to attack her. In that same day, we went downtown Toronto for an art exhibit at George Brown College. It wasn't my type of setting only because people seemed so sophisticated and whatnot. But yeah, we enjoyed ourselves and the food that was served there...hmmmmmm roast beef sandwich and smoked cheese. To end the night off we watched "He's Just Not That Into You" and man that movie is jokes. I didn't finish it and I've yet to borrow it from my girl to see what happens in the end. Definitely recommend that. Overall, I loved that day. It's definitely worth planning all of that.

Saturday night, I went to All Stars for some chicken wings. A couple of the Godfathers were there w/ their ladyfriends, the rest were MIA because they were at a graduation. But yeah, had a good time meeting Christina (you know who you are) and she's really nice to Flow, but hey I still have to run her through the screening process. I thought I would order just the regular Honey & Garlic flavoured wings but I thought I wanted to try something new (the ladyfriend insists that I try new things). I had what they called over there the 'Pandora's Box' and man, it's probably my 2nd favourite flavour after Honey & Garlic. The taste of it is pretty much like H&G but it had a nice spicy kick to it which is not too bad for me. We ended up reaching the graduation so some of the Godfathers were there (Rolando and VIP was still MIA) and I saw my girl along with our other friends. Overall a goodnight to spend with everyone. I couldn't miss another chill session because I've been MIA from all the other functions for the past week. Had to make this up to them.

You might be wondering who The Godfathers are. Funny thing is they don't know they're the Godfathers, I kinda just made it up today and it just stuck. Well it consists of MC, Flow, Franco, VIP, Rolando, Big K, AD3 and me. Just a bunch of us guys who grew up together and have created bonds throughout the years. There's a number of non-members who are affiliations but we'll discuss that later.

Sunday morning I went to the dentist with the family and I just had a filling done. Initially I thought I would've had my teeth cleaned but we didn't have much time because we got there at 10:30AM and we left at 1:00PM. So next time that's probably what I'm goin' to get done. We had Harvey's after, nothing too special about that. Sunday was just a beautiful day but it just felt nice being lazy and lying around. It was an okay Father's Day as well, but whatever it's just one of the marketing schemes that our society has embraced.

It's 11:19PM right now, I'm not sure what time I started posting because my friend gave me a call saying that they had broken up with their significant other. I don't want to go into too many details but I earnestly believe that they have done the best thing for them and their relationship. They have been talking to a 'potential' so the whole situation for them right now is pretty much bitter sweet.

So that's pretty much all for now. I'll post up pictures of our adventure and I'll try to upload more things in the future.

Until then, peace mofos.

Pinoy

Rise from the Ashes

Man, it's been quite a long time since I thought about updating this blog. I've been really really swamped lately, but I shouldn't complain because a friend of mine has decided to help me out with a project for work. I pretty much owe her a lot after what she's done for me. With that said, I've been very tired just because my work requires me to start at 3:30PM and end at 9:30PM. By the time I get home, I'm pretty much dead and have no energy to do anything. Except Sims 3. That game is addicting. I've only created one character (mine of course) and I'm already engaged so much. I hope it's not another World of Warcraft phase I'm going through.

In other news, I really want to get into Adobe's Creative Suite. I just find that it's such a good asset to have in today's workplace. Doesn't matter what field you're in, Photoshop/Illustrator users are on high demand. If you guys know of any good books (no not a 'Photoshop for Dummies' book), send it over my way.

I realized that I would not be able to get to where I am right now without my family, friends and God. Just had to plug that in.

Until then, God bless and Peace out mofos

American Idol - Top 3

There are things that I don't like to admit about myself, but I just have to speak openly about a a particular show I like to watch - American Idol. Tonight's show was just crazy! Now, I don't really care much about Danny or that rocker fellow, but I am definitely a fan of Kris Allen. His rendition of 'Heartless' by Kanye West was absolutely amazing. I mean I've heard The Fray do a cover of that song, but Kris' version was definitely much better. Even better than K.West's version, but don't tell him that otherwise he's ego will feel threatened. His version of 'Apologize' was not that great - just mediocre. I understood what Kara and Randy were trying to say about him doing something more to that song than just playing behind the piano, but hey he did his best. If I hadn't heard that song, I would be convinced that it was his song to begin with.



In other news, what's up with the nude/scandalous celebrity photos showing up lately? First, it was that Miss California chick, then Cassie and now Rihanna. I dunno, just an observation of mine I suppose. Don't get me wrong, they are very attractive in more ways than one, but man, I'm just not feelin' the whole 'invasion of privacy' issue. Obviously those pictures were meant for someone else. Guess a person's word of honour isn't worth much these days.

Feelin' tired even though I only had a short day at work. I have decided to get myself a DSi along with an Acekard 2i to download my games. I'll be trading in my DS for a $65 credit (and trust my DS is worth that much since the top screen is a bit flimsy) towards a brand new DSi. I thought of getting either a DSi, a DSLR, an Xbox 360 or an acoustic guitar for my birthday, and I think I might get 2 out of the 4 (one of them being the DSi).

Life is just amazing these days. And speaking of which, I just wanted to make an announcement that I'll be starting my new job either on the 19th or 25th. I'll be working the new Fine Arts Building for George Brown College Continuing Education. As for the duties that I'll be doing...not to sure, but I know I'll be taking care of the operation of the building. And no, I don't know what my position is either. All I know is that I'm getting paid more and doing a lot less than my previous job. Can't knock me down for that. :D

Well I'm getting tired, sorry but there's no Big Up Monday until next week when it's Victoria Day in Canada. I might be getting the condo to myself. Not sure, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed on that one. Party? Maybe a small get together with the friends. Sleepover? Most likely - if they feel like it.

Anyway, this is it for now. Goodnight mofos. Peace. Oh btw, here's today's Babe of the Day:...errr I'm kind of frustrated because I can't find a decent and beautiful looking BOTD. Next time.

No Title

Damn, this week is goin' so slow for me each day. Probably because I don't have my usual Wednesday off. Anyway, I recently got into Pokemon again (Pokemon Platinum)...yeah I'm a nerd. Too many new characters to remember, however I still remember the old ones from Pokemon Red/Blue. Everyone had that game back when it came out in the 90's.

Well last night I cleaned up my closet and decided to throw out some things that I didn't need. While I was cleaning up, I found a couple of things which gave me a feeling of nostalgia:

• 20+ issues of Maxim, still in mint condition (consists of mainly brunettes who have graced their covers)
• a number of comics books - I'll post the titles later on
• some pictures I've had from way back in the day (middle school & high school era)
• a box full of little gifts from my 'ladyfriend'
• a number of PC games I used play - can you say World of Warcraft?

Anyway, my closet looks clean...for now. I still have to sort out my shoe boxes tomorrow. I'll give an update later on. Take care for now.

P.M.

Here's for the ladyfriend - I'm not sure if you know my blog exists and I don't know if you keep up with it...but I just wanted to say that I love you. Cooooooool!

One Week

Recap: This past week has been a blur for me. Only because my pay cheque just disappeared just like that *snap*. I hate being a spontaneous shopper but when I see something I think I need, I just can't get a hold of myself. These days most of it is going to my 4x4 anyway - just got the inside cleaned and I bought seat covers.

I've been on Facebook tryin' to work the new layout...and it's not working for me. It resembles Twitter way too much and I don't even have an account. Anyway, MSN Messenger is pretty much the same case but no one goes on that anymore. It's becoming extinct like ICQ (though I know some people still use it).

I went to a party this past weekend and I must say it was pretty sick. The Insanes have thrown yet another party, big or small venue, if they say it's a party...it's a party. Happy Birthday to A&W, you probably won't be reading this, but just wanted to give you guys a shout out. I feel blessed to know people like them, good company and amazing family, nothing bad I could say about them.

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Recently, I've been thinking about where my life is going and it's sad for me to say/admit that I have no idea where I'm heading. I'm just at that point where I'm at a major crossroad in my life and that I have no idea which path to take because the choice I make will change how my life is in the future. It's killin' me at this point. My parent's have asked me when am I going to graduate and I can't even give them an honest answer. Both my grandmas ask me the same thing on a weekly basis and it just irritates me because I feel like I'm the biggest disappointment in the family. And it's because of this that I feel disconnected with everyone who I care about.

I know I'm not going to stay long at my current job - no matter how amazing it pays or how much room there is to excel, I just can't see my self working my way up the corporate ladder. I'm not complaining or bitching about my life, just frustrated with myself I guess. I always thought that I was in control and that I had everything all figured out. Only thing I can do now is move forward, take the cards I'm dealt with and hope each day gets better :)

P.M.

The One That Got Away

It's not every day when you read something amazing and it just makes you think. Not in the sense of thinking how good and articulate the words were put together, but in the way that it stimulates the way your mind thinks about certain things.

I recently read this article which was posted by someone on Facebook. Personally, I know how much this article means to them - I feel for them and fully respect them for it. Well, enjoy the read. Hopefully you guys will get what I'm talking about in the end.

THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY
Source: The Manila Times
By: Mark J. Macapagal

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become deal breakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter.

All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "the one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got this one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."

P.M.